A hamburger without the patties, lettuces and bread. Put that into a feeling. Like say nostalgia. That feeling is nostalgic, but it’s not a desire, a longing or yearn. What is it?

Today I went past the place of bad memories.

So death finally caught up to us.

Remember the past when you thought the world was beautiful. Stagnant, but still nevertheless beautiful. Then changes start to make things difficult in your world. They force the you to accept hurtful facts, to lose faith in the mechanism of life itself. What is life? You ask yourself at one point of time.

Today is the end of a friend’s dad. But it is also the beginning my friend’s huge responsibilities as the eldest son. A lot of changes will be taking place in his life. My mindset as well. What I thought could only happen in dramas could really just happen to one fine day. The fragility of life itself. It just makes you want to hug your closed ones now, before death takes them away. Well, time does have a habit of slipping away, doesn’t it?

We are no longer small kids living in oblivion.

Something I wanted to tell some one but never got the chance to;

If I recycled the love littered at your feet, hearts would starve no more.

©2008-2009 ~oldest-boy

Life is beautiful when you think life can be beautiful. Optimism and the small things in life, those are the keys.

Part 1 is easy. It always has been. But now here comes Part 2.

Real forgiveness means to forget.

To be sincere in our forgiveness of others we should not even remember the incident. Sometimes forgiveness can be conditional, we shall tell somebody we have forgiven them, but maybe later we will bring it up to use it against them. This is not real forgiveness. Only when we do not think about the experience have we really forgiven others.

When we forgive others, we should not feel that we are just doing somebody else a favour; through forgiving others we are helping ourselves immensely. By remembering the misdeeds of others we live in the critical and judgemental mind. However through forgiveness we learn to appreciate the good qualities of others. Through forgiveness we become aware of our extended reality. If someone does something wrong a good attitude to take is. “I could quite easily have done that myself”. Even if we wouldn’t have done this action, it makes us more humble.

Richard-Pettinger

She was perfect

till she ran away.

Hope. The absence of yellow, symbol of hope. No colours in your world. We see things in greyscale.

Void. Apathy. Solitude. Desperate. Emotionless. Hopelessness.

Solitude. Shutting yourself from the outside world. Hide from the pain, the memories. Reluctance to release the hate.

Desperation. To hear your voice. To put an end to all of this.

Absolutely nothing you can do.

What if we could lose all emotions?

Indulgence in the luxury of bad memories, bad music.

Emotions are difficult people.

The endless void. The emptiness in which nothing fits, nothing replaces.

The apathy. The lethargicity. The lost of energy, defiance of the laws of physics. The violation of the Law of Conservation of Energy.

The time machine. Take it. And Rewindddd ————————————————> Back to the past.

Hug her. Tell her. Forget all that she will not or would’ve done.

Why? Why can’t we just rewind?

We can’t.

And for that,

for what you’ve done and let me down,

I hate you.